...it's hard to accept to be once again left behind when all you thought love will never fade
Maybe true love only happens in fairy tales and happy endings are just but a dream.
Pain is inevitable...it may take some time again but life must go on. Acceptance is the start of healing...putting together the broken pieces of your heart is a tough phase to go through which i have to pass again. It is better to let go than hold on to someone who can never be happy being with you.
A colorful picture of togetherness is what I have when I'm with you. Happy faces and wonderful days spent graceful until end of time. All these suddenly grew dim as your words were spoken.
Again and again I wish that person could be me...the person who belongs to you.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Things Happen For A Reason
Many times when uncertain things happen in lives the first word that we utter is "WHY?".
Why does he/she has to leave me?
Why did I fail in my business?
Why that person won me over that position?
Indeed, we grumble and complain whenever the feeling of defeat and failure overwhelms us. We struggle to find the answers to our questions ending up desperate and tired with life. But, if only we learn to bounce back into reality and accept our failures then we can start to be happy. The fact is reasons may not be always readily be available for us to understand. Acceptance of the situation will help us start to heal our brokenness. If you think those successful people are on top without climbing the rough rock then you're absolutely rock. They have gone through several hardships, failures, criticisms and defeats. Yet they never quit and believed that things happen for a reason.
When I was about to go for secondary school, I was excited to go to an exclusive school. Unfortunately, Dad had a health issue and family finances went bad. In order to continue school i was enrolled into a semi-private school. I felt so small at that time knowing that my friends are all going to an exclusive school. I asked "why do i have to go to that school and why are all these things happening in our family?". I was really hesitant to go to that school.
But after sometime, I realized that my dreams are still there for me to follow. I studied well and earned the respect and admiration of the whole campus it felt good. The not so good situation turned out to be positive for me. Soon, when I reached my senior year and as everyone is preparing for their plans in college...I was asked by my teacher in which university are you planning to enrol...simpley i said "University of Santo Tomas".
Even though the times are still hard for my family I dared to take the entrance exam in UST. And after a few months and days before my graduation I was surprised to know that I passed in one of the top universities in the Philippines. I was overjoyed on that day and excitedly told mom about it. Mom gave a proud smile yet told me "how can we afford to send you there?". I did my best to stop the tears from falling but it just ran down swiftly.
I was greatly surprised when the head of our school announced the school valedictorian, it was "me". Graduation day came and my family was there happy and proud yet by the end of the ceremony I was thinking how can I go to that university.
Amazingly I was able to enroll for the first semester and got a scholarship of 100% defrayal from tuition fee since I graduated with honors. It was a huge struggle coping with college life. I need to live away from home in order to save expenses in going to school. I only had one uniform to wear (there are times I had to wear it even when wet), I had to walk from school to home and buy the cheapest food for lunch all just to save my allowance. But when the final grading came, my grades didn't reach the quota and I lost my scholarship.
It was like a big blow on my head, here I was pushing myself to study in the university of my choice but failed to reached the required grade...again I asked the big question "Why does it need to happen to me when I really wanted to study in that school?".
I didn't stop on sorting ways to continue my studies in that school even if my mom asked me to go to another school. It is my dream and I am to follow it no matter what. My uncle gave me an amount that i require for enrolment and then I applied to some fast food chains. One day during my chemistry class, I received a call from one of the fast food chains and they told me to come for my orientation "i was hired" however on that same day in the afternoon I was requested to visit the Students Affairs Office only to find out that I was qualified for their scholarship...i was given a 100% defrayal in both my tuition and miscellaneous.
Indeed things happen for a reason, God allows failures and defeats come into our lives not to punish us but to teach us a lesson and push us to give out our best. I have come to realize if I have settled on just asking "why" and never committed on achieving my dreams I may have not graduated in the university that i wanted most.
We may be experiencing great pain in the situation that we are in right now but the choice is in our hands. Its either we seize the opportunity to better ourselves or just sit and cry. God blesses those who comes and believes in His goodness because God is generous, merciful and loving.
Why does he/she has to leave me?
Why did I fail in my business?
Why that person won me over that position?
Indeed, we grumble and complain whenever the feeling of defeat and failure overwhelms us. We struggle to find the answers to our questions ending up desperate and tired with life. But, if only we learn to bounce back into reality and accept our failures then we can start to be happy. The fact is reasons may not be always readily be available for us to understand. Acceptance of the situation will help us start to heal our brokenness. If you think those successful people are on top without climbing the rough rock then you're absolutely rock. They have gone through several hardships, failures, criticisms and defeats. Yet they never quit and believed that things happen for a reason.
When I was about to go for secondary school, I was excited to go to an exclusive school. Unfortunately, Dad had a health issue and family finances went bad. In order to continue school i was enrolled into a semi-private school. I felt so small at that time knowing that my friends are all going to an exclusive school. I asked "why do i have to go to that school and why are all these things happening in our family?". I was really hesitant to go to that school.
But after sometime, I realized that my dreams are still there for me to follow. I studied well and earned the respect and admiration of the whole campus it felt good. The not so good situation turned out to be positive for me. Soon, when I reached my senior year and as everyone is preparing for their plans in college...I was asked by my teacher in which university are you planning to enrol...simpley i said "University of Santo Tomas".
Even though the times are still hard for my family I dared to take the entrance exam in UST. And after a few months and days before my graduation I was surprised to know that I passed in one of the top universities in the Philippines. I was overjoyed on that day and excitedly told mom about it. Mom gave a proud smile yet told me "how can we afford to send you there?". I did my best to stop the tears from falling but it just ran down swiftly.
I was greatly surprised when the head of our school announced the school valedictorian, it was "me". Graduation day came and my family was there happy and proud yet by the end of the ceremony I was thinking how can I go to that university.
Amazingly I was able to enroll for the first semester and got a scholarship of 100% defrayal from tuition fee since I graduated with honors. It was a huge struggle coping with college life. I need to live away from home in order to save expenses in going to school. I only had one uniform to wear (there are times I had to wear it even when wet), I had to walk from school to home and buy the cheapest food for lunch all just to save my allowance. But when the final grading came, my grades didn't reach the quota and I lost my scholarship.
It was like a big blow on my head, here I was pushing myself to study in the university of my choice but failed to reached the required grade...again I asked the big question "Why does it need to happen to me when I really wanted to study in that school?".
I didn't stop on sorting ways to continue my studies in that school even if my mom asked me to go to another school. It is my dream and I am to follow it no matter what. My uncle gave me an amount that i require for enrolment and then I applied to some fast food chains. One day during my chemistry class, I received a call from one of the fast food chains and they told me to come for my orientation "i was hired" however on that same day in the afternoon I was requested to visit the Students Affairs Office only to find out that I was qualified for their scholarship...i was given a 100% defrayal in both my tuition and miscellaneous.
Indeed things happen for a reason, God allows failures and defeats come into our lives not to punish us but to teach us a lesson and push us to give out our best. I have come to realize if I have settled on just asking "why" and never committed on achieving my dreams I may have not graduated in the university that i wanted most.
We may be experiencing great pain in the situation that we are in right now but the choice is in our hands. Its either we seize the opportunity to better ourselves or just sit and cry. God blesses those who comes and believes in His goodness because God is generous, merciful and loving.
missed blog!
wow! haven't realize how busy i was that i missed out blog...
let me re-active my passion in putting my thoughts in words...
let me re-active my passion in putting my thoughts in words...
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