I WANT A GUY...

Holding On, Letting Go!

which is better to hold on or to let go?
why is it doing either of which is painful and heartbreaking?

but when you someone, faith is where you hold on to and strives to let go of your fears just to make it through the darkest forest.

Hoping to find the answers...

- Simply Saturday -

Can't hardly believe that i'ts the last Saturday for the month of May...which I enjoyed with the blue room girlz-Cherrie, Teenee and Mitzie (with special guest Annie).
My g-miks on a Saturday...

• 0718H - I was awaken by a morning call from honey (sweet), after the convervation I slept again.


• 1030H - Dad called up to remind me of our scheduled chat with mom and wade...we finished about 1300H with mommy doing all the storytelling (it was a great family bonding - online)


• 1310H - since I wasn't able to join the girlz for brunch, had no choice but to eat alone...thankfully Annie joined me and shared some stories.


• 1330H - started to change my beddings, chatting with friends and just had fun talks with the gurlz...


• 1900H - went to City Center to have dinner with Tim & Bert.


• 2030H - as agreed, us gurlz had our prayer household. it was an intimate moment praying for each other.

It's just one of the many Saturday for 365 days in a year...but I guess, it's really on how you spend it matters most!

D' Gurlz of Blue Room

our first coffee bonding as roommates

mitzie . teenee . cherrie . shane

You Made Me Stronger

It's funny when songs can bring back bittersweet memories...

Lyrics
Cause you've made me stronger by breaking my heart
You've ended my life and made a better one start
You've taught me everything from falling in love and letting go of a lie
Yes you've made me stronger by saying goodbye

And I have you to thank for setting me free...

WaCkY NiTe

I was scheduled for a shawarma nite with Jem, Che, Shar & Lhen but due to some unexpected things the plan was postponed to next week (better luck next time).

Though the initial plan was canceled the ladies from Blue Room was not stopped from singing the night away when Teenee decided to play the videoke. Annie came to visit us, it was fun to sing your heart out...songs of Aegis, Regine V., Spice Girls, Celine Dion and others. We put a stop into it when our guest of honor from Riyadh (Eboy) came all the way from the airport to visit his beloved "Yaba-Cherrie". Well knowing that he's a very good singer...we all decided to watch a movie "You Got Me".

It was nice to stay at home...and have a good laugh with friends. I thank God for this evening.

Prayer Meeting

Had a wondeful night with Papey Nanan, Naney Lala, Jonas, Mirz, Jeanette, Teenee & Ey...
I was so moved by Nanan's prayer...indeed all I need is the strength and courage to make a move in order to achieve what I've been praying for in terms of my visa cancellation...

May 16, 2011
12:27am

Last question hanging on my mind as I'm about to sleep:
Can this love really survive it's greatest battle? Is it strong enough to reach forever?

Loner

i've been used to being alone...
alone while roaming around the mall...
having dinner at any fast food chain...
walking along Al Rigga...
attending Sunday masses...

Oh yes! i've been enjoying these great privilege for the past 5 years of my Dubai life. We'll I do enjoy the moments of solidarity but there was also times that i longed to be with someone...thank God I was blessed with someone to spend the first things except the last one...well, it's too much to ask! That's life.

11:59PM 15-May-2011

Various thoughts is running through my head and doesn't know which one to entertain first.
thought 1: Had a hearty conversation with Bheng at Starbucks, Al Ghurair this evening. It was enlightening which really made me stop and think..."am I really ready for this?". The answer...is yet to be uncovered.

thought 2: Visa still not cancelled. I'm just wondering until when will DRAC hold me. How i wish they'll cancel my visa ASAP.

thought 3: My service, I wanted to be back on track in serving SFC.

Happy Mother's Day

can't believe that i have said these lines last night:

"I hope that we can be like this forever..."

my emotions we're all mixed up...both happy & sad.

9th of May

...hahaha
...now you're just an ordinary day

where was I last FREEDAY?

• 0800 CFC-SFC UAE Leaders Conference, Ewan Hotel Sharjah
• 1300 Al Ghurair Food Court
• 1430 Royal Home Hotel Apartment
• 1930 McDonalds Mankhool Rd
• 2100 Pearl Hotel, Deira

Scared to be Broken

I have hurt someone with the words that I said...and it makes me sick...
Though I really didn't mean to, but insecurities filled me in and that the past starts to haunt me again...why is it hard to fully trust again...the person is new...the love is new...but the situation is just like what it was before...it scares me again...to be broken...