There was a time in my life when
God was in total silence, it was so deafening that I felt so alone. I lost hold
of the things and people that brought me joy and peace. The paved road which I
traveled on became rough and rocky; my sky which once was blue turned into gray
until total darkness swallowed even the single ray of light.
Gloom and despair tried to
overpower me but it’s the gleam of faith that kept me company as days turned
into weeks and months. Despite God’s constant silence, I continued praying and
patiently waited for His voice of answer. I struggled and cried in the darkness
as I seek for Him but found no solace.
Tired from running and restless
search, I stood quietly still until only my heartbeat echoes on the mountain of
loneliness. Tears flowed like a stream as my knees bended on the fertile soil
and spread out my arms to surrender as the cool breeze embraced my whole being.
I cried unto Him “My Lord hear your daughter’s cry for I am broken! I believe
that it is only by Your love and grace that I can be whole again.”
Like a dead body helplessly dropped
face-down kissing the soil, I felt the earth trembled at His voice saying, “Talitha
Koum!” and the warmth of His hands lifted me up.
